WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE STUPID TAGBOARD? >:(

Last night's drama night was rather fun sitting next to the full of shit Lesley. The play started really boring but part2 was quite funny, especially with Lesley's comments. After the interval, Lesley Michelle and I had to sit upstairs cos some pregnant lady took up our seats and we didn't wanna kick up such a big fuss since she's pregnant and all. Plus, Hannah and the rest didn't wanna go upstairs so we went up ourselves. Ms Shanti was being such a bitch, she thinks we're still in school having assembly or something, making people sit down by the count of 5. We paid 10dollars to get in please. And Mr Tang, reprimanding SJI people. When the SJI guitar club played, it was so funny, the audience adding sound effects and all, with the conductor playing along. And the people sitting in front of us were shouting their friends' nicknames, like joshowawa or something like that, so funny.
'Paula' looked so cute in the play hahaha. It was so funny with the pregnancy kit and all, and that stupid 'Jimmy'. Lesley said they're a sexually active group, got me and michelle laughing nonstop halfway through. Hahaha.

Everything's so fucked up, I wanna strike lottery and win a million dollars so I can go to Aussie with Renee.

My blog layout is starting to look quite bimbotic to me yah. I need a new layout now!

Today was a rather messy day. I don't know, I can't even rmb anything. But after school, Ariel, Madeleine, Michelle, Steph, Lesley and I went novena square to collect our class teeshirts! And like you know the fucker in class used our money to pay for those fucking spoilt shirts the other time and he dared to say " it's only $300, I"ll pay all of you back. " And now, he's only paying half of the amount, dare to say but don't do. WHAT AN EXAMPLE TO STUDENTS. Oh God, I bet he like did really badly for his exams no choice but to become teacher. Such a sucker. So anyway the teeshirts are comfy and nice. Like duh, design by who? Haha :D Had lunch at Bk with Lesley and Ariel, the rest went back to school for project and debate.
Came back home, then went to Bishan to meet Jen. I like spent my whole afternoon and night studying at my favourite coffeebean. I went to get my free milk, was adding the chocolate and vanilla powder, and then this stupid woman was staring at me,such a kaypo please. Dawn came later :] And we studied and studied and I finish ALL of my homework. Such a tiring task eh. Heh heh, I did it! Anyway something really interesting happened today to someone at coffeebean. HAHA. Oh and those fucking irritating china people beside us were so annoying, their accent and all, so disturbing that I had to put in extra effort in concentrating while doing my work.
I had a really fun day today, although like I spent it almost all on studying, but was such a great accomplishment. The company was enough to make me oh-so-happy :)

It's a Saturday night and I'm home. Sucks, I'm like supposed to go grapevine but I can't, and now, I can't get to see Vicky and the rest of the people I haven't met for quite some time.
So this morning I went swimming with Dawn. It wasn't as crowded as I thought it'll be, which is good. I swam like only 16laps I think, I felt so lazy. And Dawn swam 20. Jen was supposed to come too, but she went much earlier, without me :(
So Dawn and I went to j8 after swimming to wait for Emeline. Slacked at coffeebean and had a few cups of milk with chocolate powder and vanilla powder. And then met Emeline, Dawn left home. I got my last year's christmas present from Emeline! :] Haha thank you so much. And we just walked around, in the end decided to sit at mos. So I caught up more on PL's life hahaha. I guess everybody's changing. Some changed so drastically it can be frightening sometimes. Oh well, nobody can turn back time, but I'm glad at least I had like so much happy and fun memories with them. And I'm so grateful to know them at that time before they changed and all. I liked them that way. So anyway, Emeline left for church and then met Jen :D And then, we slacked at coffeebean again. Haha. Then I had more milk with chocolate and vanilla powder. I learnt so much about her past before I knew her. Hahaha, quite funny. Then Dawn called, she said she was coming but I had to leave early cos my mom was gonna pick me up on the way so I left :] Anyway I had alot of fun today, just sitting down talking and listening and drinking.

Nationals is finally over. And now, I've no excuse to not do my homework anymore. But doesn't matter cos I wanna be back in school. During the competition period, I was hardly in class and like I missed out so much things and I feel like I'm drifting from my classmates which sucks cos we used to be really close. People changed, but it's not their fault if they did. As the world goes round, people and things change. I guess that's how life is meant to be anyway.
After nationals, I left cck stadium with Joy and Cheryl, hoping to leave before the crowd comes. But guess what, we missed two buses because it was far too crowded to board, and I lost my fucking ez-link. So the third bus came, I didn't pay, cos it was so crowded the driver won't even realise anyway.
Met Dawn at Bishan :D She treated me to my favourite restaurant - thai express :D Heh heh. It was really fun just sitting there, taking our time to eat our tomyam noodles, and me listening to her past. HAHAHAH. So funny please. Met the rest of the trackers there, I knew they were gonna go for Thai express anyway. It's like a routine for our track team haha. Then after Dawn & I finished our food, I had to like go get my sister a black gasy drink. In the end we ended up buying sweets and chocolates, oh my, how sinful :( Then we wanted to just chill at coffeebean munching our sweets and chocolates, walked there, met the trackers again. Carrie was there. She joined us, we went to kfc instead cos there were no seats outside coffeebean. Sat there for a while, mom called and I had to leave. Thank you Dawn, so so much for the night. I had alot alot of fun. Thank you! I love you! :)

Tomorrow's finals :(

Today I tried to be polite when that asshole came into class. So I kept my mouth shut so I won't TALK BACK to him. And then he scolds me for not answering him. Adults are confusing, in a stupid way. Especially that one.

I have too much overdued homework, so much that I don't feel like doing ANY AT ALL. I guess tmr I'll be staying back for detention.

I was just wondering. Is there always something on my face, do I look weird or simply too cool :D ? Hahah. For the past few days, I've seen like many people staring at me. Esp today. Three irritating weird girls from Whitley were in Long John. Val, Michelle, Joy, XinPei, Rachel and me were like waiting for seats. The three girls turned around, stared at us and went on yaba-ing among themselves. So fucking irritating cos I hate people who stare. So like duh we obviously stared back and like said stuff about them. And it so happened that the woman working in Long John like chased them away cos we were waiting for seats, and then she told us to sit at where those three bitches were sitting. So they had no choice but to leave, banging into Val on purpose on their way out. But Val didn't say anything. So we sat and eat. Then XinPei saw those three bitches standing from the second storey staring at us. They're like so weird. So Michelle decided to time them. And they just stood there, for 32minutes. Just staring at us and talking about us. And the weirdest girl actually laughs to herself. God, how can anyone get weirder than that for a normal girl? Well, actually I've seen her a couple of times here and there around Bishan, and she always stares at me, today's an exception. Staring for 32minutes is indeed a record. I hope I can see her soon.
I came home after lunch to realise no one was at home. So sat outside my house for very long, lucky I had my book. But like it was quite scary cos there're alot of loan sharks coming to my block, outside the lift, scribbling all those nonsense. Then what if I bump into one, hahaha. So anyway my mom finally came back after very long. When I was gonna do my maths homework, I realised I didn't bring home any of my homework. Instead I brought home like Geog Textbook and History textbook. Those two useless books. Bloody hell I feel so angry cos for once I wanna do my homework but I can't. Sucks.

Sunday - the day which I hardly blog on. But today's been good :]
I was playing The Sims2 since I woke up, my old man died :'( His life like expired, hahaha. Then after he died, I switched off the computer. Got ready, and went to Dawn's house. Studied A LITTLE BIT, and left for esplanade. Baybeats! I'm like not even into music or anything, I just went for the sake of going. But it was quite good. I stayed for only two bands, copeland first and then electrico. Copeland's performance was a rather small one cos I watched it at "The Village." And then electrico at " The Arena", it was good. I never knew their songs have been playing through the radio, although I've heard the songs before, but never knew who sang it because I'm not into music so I can't be bothered. But we couldn't like get closer cos there were barriers, and some fucking stupid police and security guards. I hate barriers. Met Jen, Jeannine, Claire, Val, Rese, Elsa, Donnamae, Alexandria blah blah blah. There were alot of people. Too dark to even see. And alot of weirdos too.

Tomorrow's Monday and I'm going to school after so long. This sucks, cos I haven't done my homework cos I'm too lazy to. Goodbye.

I've been missing so much in school, and I like it like that. But I don't wanna miss Maths lesson cos then, I'll have so much to catch up on. This week, I've spent most of my time sitting in the sun, screaming and just watching people run. Just imagine all the athletes train so hard, just to complete a 14seconds race for example. Maybe I shld get my life out of track after this competition, I need to lose weight desparately. Everytime I go for training I gain weight, when I don't go I lose weight. So I'm not going anymore :D

You bloody mother fucker. You expect to me respect you when you don't even fucking respect me. If someone thinks that you didn't come to work on purpose when you had something really important on how would you feel? Just because you think you're the track teacher big fuck la. You know shit about track for God's sake. Don't make yourself sound like you know every single thing that has been happening in track. And then in the end, you don't even admit whatever you've said on Monday. Fucking loser. The class can be the witness, everybody told me. And if you don't care what I blog about you, what I say about you and all that shit, you won't even be reading my blog stupid asshole. And if you wanna take going to work as an example, look at this. Firstly, I will never be rude to my boss like how rude I am to you because I get paid for doing work for my boss. But I don't get paid for bearing with you and to be sitting in that fucking classroom looking at stupid faces everytime each bell rings. BUT YOU GET PAID FOR SHOUTING AT ME. So don't compare. And no matter how rude I am to you, I don't swear in front of you like you did to me. Even though I use it and all, I don't use it in front of a teacher. But you used it in front of a student. So next time don't blame me if I were to use those words right at your face cos I'm learning from your example. And I never thought of myself as a big shot in school, I think you're the one who thinks I am that's why you mentioned it. Hahaha. And I'm sorry but I don't give a fuck about what happened last year to your fucking class. I don't give a fuck if you were to shout at me in front of the class because it just reflects on you and not on me, stupid. Besides, I do not even bitch about you at all, the least unexpected people in class are the ones who bitch about you in case you didn't know. But I guess you'll never know cos you're so fucking stupid. You only ask about me when I don't come to school. I bet you're like waiting for a day when I play truant, getting all ready to catch me. Just wait forever, cos the day won't come. If you were to count the attendance, I come to school more regularly compared to you and i can gurantee that. You can go on complaining to my dad because I don't give a shit at all. If you wanna shout at me till the whole block hears, I don't give a fuck. Shout all you want. I'll never be able to respect someone who doesn't even respect me as a student in the first place. And I'll never respect teachers like you. Do you see me disrespecting Mrs Wong, Mrs Nicholas, Miss Yip, Mrs Siow, Miss Liem, Ms Mastura? NO. And you know why, because they make sense when they speak, because they respect students, because they're fair. Not like you. Fucking biased piece of shit. I HOPE YOU READ THIS SHIT BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO GET ANGRIER. HAHAHA.

NATASHA LIEW, what the hell are you talking about? You've NEVER EVER been non-existant in my life before and you never will okay. And I visit your blog like everyday to update myself about what's going on in your life right now but you don't even blog anymore. I can't tag your board cos it exceeds more than 200 characters so I decided to blog instead. I hope I haven't been non-existant in YOUR life Nat. And I want you to know I miss you more than anything else. I love you, see you soon in December :]

Looking at the Nationals results is just so.... saddening. I think like our school has the most withdrawals. Aiyah, this sucks. I feel so confidentless. Bye, school sucks.

Dear diary, I think today was quite an eventful day. First, the relay teams didn't go to school at all when our events are like in the afternoon because Mr Loh gave us permission and also because he wanted us to do light training in the morning. So anyway, woke up at 7, rushed over to Feline's house cos Jamie's mom was picking Feline, Amanda and I up from there.
So afternoon had our run, I was so bad, I couldn't even last, I slowed down so much. But nvm, we qualified for finals! from like the 20th position to 5th position :D hohoho.
What happened next was after the relay runners all came up from our run, and like everybody crowding around and all, not realising someone's bags were like in the middle of us. And the things belonged to the school sitting next to us - Greenridge Secondary ( by now, you shld be wondering whether this school even exists, haha ) And this fucking mugg was like saying " step la, just step all over our bags" and Feline just said nicely she wasn't even stepping. So obviously I shouted back at him saying that we weren't stepping on their stuff. And he replied saying something like we don't even watch where we step, anyhow step everywhere ( in a very bad English manner of course. not like my English is very good, but at least better than his ). So I said to him " You anyhow put your things don't even look after, it's not even our fault." So I guess he wasn't expecting that and all he replied was " I don't wanna quarrel with girls ". Fucking loser I swear, he can contradict himself in less than a minute. He started it, and he can say that. I bet he had nothing else to say and didn't wanna make him feel like a loser, but by saying that, just proves how stupid he is. So I just said you started it first and walked away. Guess what happened next, I accompanied Pearl to the toilet to shit, and when I went back, Genia told me they stole Huajia's spikes. The girls from the school. And apparently, they were so hesitant about opening their shoebags and all. In the end, we found her spikes in one of the girl's shoebag. Despite of that, she still kept denying. Oh btw, she's another malay girl. And in the end, Huajia got her spikes back but not her socks. Fucked up school with fucked up and stupid students with NO MORALS AT ALL.
And when the school was leaving, I shouted at the mugg whom I argued with earlier on, calling him a bloody loser. He came up and find me, but I was over the other side when he came up. He was shouting at me so softly please. All I heard was " slut" hahaha. I think that's like the only word he knows which made no sense at all. So of course I shouted back at him saying something like you fucking loser, contradicted yourself just now. " and he went on calling me slut and all. Haha, limited vocab for a moraless mugg like him! Then I just called him a dickhead and asked him to shut up, he left.
The end. So eventful isn't it? I'll go check what the fuck is greenridge secondary school is now. Goodbye fellow readers. I'm an angry girl, I think I need anger management soon.

This is like a special Sunday compared to the other Sundays I've spent lazing around at home. I can't believe it, but I went to church today with Kimberley. I haven't gone to church since beginning of May because I was too lazy to wake up. I almost fell asleep during service, yawning and tearing. But this is the first time I laughed during message which also means I was listening. Haha, today the pastor was rather funny.
So anyway after church snacked at macs with Kimberley at j8 and she had to leave. Waited for Dawn & Jen and had lunch at mos. Cheese souffle was really fattening! Goodness. And we were supposed to study, I took out my books and realised I already finished my homework on THURSDAY. So I ended up with nothing to do. But just listening to Dawn, Jen and Mervyn communicate is so amusing alr. So I had fun.
Left for training, was late. Reached about 0345 when training was supposed to start at 0315. So anyway, I warmed up, did drills and all. Changed my spikes and....... Started to rain. Sucks please. Like a total waste of time. So anyway Mr Loh came after it started pouring. And he's allowing us to go down tmr morning which means we get to miss the whole day of school! Haha. Because we didn't get proper training today. And I guess we're gonna have a little training tmr morning. So anyway, had dinner with Jamie Feline Audrey at macs then came home.

Some shitass on my tagboard thinks I'm psycho, thinking I'm making up two identities for the same person. HAHAHA STUPID JOKER.

Today I went for Nationals, to warm up and shake leg after that. It's such a waste of time, taking warm up as a training, according to Mr Loh. So I wasted an afternoon there.

Met Dawn & Jen at Bishan after that. I waited like almost half an hour STANDING UP. Smelling like a pair of worn socks. Hahaha. Then met Belle and Cheryl and went to town. Long John's for dinner as usual :D I played Time Crisis today again! Sucks please, I lost to Cheryl and died so fast. I bet it's because the machine's lousy and not because I'm lousy. Anyway I'm really tired now so blog another day.

more photos up! :D

I don't like to go for trainings, I think I've too much time for myself to think of other things. But lucky Jac came for training today, which was good. Cos she's so bloody noisy, she entertains me. Today, PL was also having training at Bishan, so I met like many people, Munirah, YuJun, Jessica, Priscilla, Caryn, YunLu etc. Pearl came for training today which was rather shocking. I suck so much I think I won't qualify for finals for hurdles which is really saddening cos like I feel like I'm training hard.

Michelle won't be in school for this whole week, which makes recess much quieter, and well, everyone misses her. YOU SEE THAT MICHELLE? Stupid asshole, go sailing and sailing and sail sail sail FOREVER. So anyway, during English today was good. Hannah left for counselling. So it was just XinPei and me. Today was rather weird, I didn't feel like school at all. Firstly because I didn't bring my English nor my history paper. So anyway, today I got myself a new pet dog, and she is XinPei. And also, I finally found out the true identity of the girl who sits on my left. SHE'S AN ELEPHANT. Scary huh. I had alot of fun today in class. Doodling and doodling with XinPei.

I can't even recall the last time we even spoke to each other. When was the last time we even met anyway? Not long, but long enough to be forgotten. There's so much I've to say to you,
but I know you've no time for me. I thought, and I was pretty sure you were my friend, maybe it was too early for me to say or even think of it. I guess you're happy with your life right now, I'm sure you don't even remember I exist anymore. I'm happy for you because you're happy. But you've no idea how jealous I am to be seeing you with your new friends, neglecting your old ones. Yes, I do get jealous. Whatever, I can't say I don't care because I'll be lying to myself. Anyway, I miss you. But I hope you don't know who I'm talking about. Take care.

You know, there're many times I've blogged but never dared to publish it. Because I don't like people commenting on it, and I never dared to really say how I feel, esp on a blog, or even anytime.
These days, I've been thinking alot. For the past few years, I've been trying so hard to please people around me that I'm not even myself anymore. I think I've lost myself. And after you try to hard to please people, they leave. Friends come and go, and someone just left. There's nothing I can do of course, because now I know who my true friends really are. You call her your friend, you call the other your friend, but honestly, how many real friends do you really have? I have only a handful, or even less than that. That's why I treasure them. I treasure them because I know true friends are hard to come by. Or even if I know they won't stay in my life forever, at least I've had good times, good memories with them. Whose life is perfect anyway? I know I'm gonna have a short life, so I like being happy. Why bother crying over spilt milk when nothing can be done? So I stay happy :D , most of the time. Or at least I try.

How contradicting can it be, for someone to say : "Don't be a bitch. " ( for example ) But be a bitch herself. Everybody's a bitch in a way or another. Who don't judge at least one other person? I'm a hypocrite of course, who's not anyway. But I try hard to change, instead of saying : " Stop being a hypocrite. " to people. She's being a hypocrite in that way already! Stupid I must say.

Once again, I must say, I haven't been truthful yet. Not to my blog :D Not to many people.
But, I'm a happy girl. Cos I've Dawn, Jen, Renee, Michelle, etc in my life. Love <3

I can't even recall the last time we even spoke to each other. When was the last time we even met anyway? Not long, but long enough to be forgotten. There's so much I've to say to you,
but I know you've no time for me. I thought, and I was pretty sure you were my friend, maybe it was too early for me to say or even think of it. I guess you're happy with your life right now, I'm sure you don't even remember I exist anymore. I'm happy for you because you're happy. But you've no idea how jealous I am to be seeing you with your new friends, neglecting your old ones. Yes, I do get jealous. Whatever, I can't say I don't care because I'll be lying to myself. Anyway, I miss you. But I hope you don't know who I'm talking about. Take care.

Dear Diary, today was spent rather well. I woke up at 12, left home at about 1plus for gym with my sister. I ran on the threadmill for 17minutes, I could have died. Haha. Dawn Jen Melissa came like long after 3. Went over to Dawn and Jen's house after that, my sister went home. Well it was fun although we hardly did anything. Their company is more than enough :]
But what really spoilt my day was : I walked passed 4 bloody cats on my way home. Yuck, they are so diszssxxgusszting please. I hate cats, they screw my day ):

Youth Day celebration photos' up. Check my links.

Woke up this morning at 0740 when Jen called. Went to collect the stuff I left at her house the day before from her at my house downstairs. Thank you for delivering it yah :] Came home and went back to sleep. Woke up at 10, realised I was gonna be late to meet Dawn cos I was suppose to meet her at 1030 for breakfast. So anyway, I managed to reach in time, much earlier actually. So we had breakfast at Macdonalds' then went to buy XinPei's other present. Went ntuc, and went home.
Grabbed my things and left for XinPei's house. Well it started off really quiet. Hardly anyone spoke anything during the bbq, in the end I suggested playing catching at the carpark. By the time, Ariel Nicolette alr left for cat class. So Mag, Jaslyn, Jamie, Jannah, Dashni, Rachel, Adeline Wong and I went to play, XinPei Michelle Clara went back to the house to change. Of course I didn't get caught! Haha, I went to hide with Jannah, the only person who got caught was Jamie.
Played Marco Polo at the playground after that. Lesley Hannah Shirin then came. Jannah left. And then Jamie. Then Dashni.
Hannah Lesley Michelle Shirin Rachel XinPei and I WENT TO SWIM. We got scolded three times by different security guards. They're so annoying please. It was the part we had the most fun. Carrying each other on shoulders and then pushing each other down. Rachel and I worked really well. I was on the top pushing everyone. Heh heh. And we had this other game, we had to open our legs and someone will swim across, through all the rest of us. It was so funny when they move their legs back, I'll pinch them. And then XinPei blew bubbles while swimming underneath, so fucking ticklish! It was fun :] Then we went over to this water playground, the slide was so fun. We got scolded by the security guard cos we ain't children. And it was written on the signboard according to him. But when we were about to leave, I realised it was written. That man is a son of a bitch I swear. We were having so much fun and he just had to ruin it.
I had alot alot of fun, Thank you XinPei, and happy birthday in advance :]

School was really great today. Youth Day Celebration. It's been the coolest celebration in school I've ever had in my whole entire life. People get to not wear school uniform.
The day started off with mass and the father was really funny. Haha, and then it was back to class for every form teacher to come to class to pass us our souveneirs. So Mr Chan didn't come, which was not a little bit surprising at all. He just gave everything to Ariel and she brought it up for us. Had tidbits, and this other cardholder which hangs on your neck. Like for your ez-link card or sth. And we got free food coupon, drink coupon and dessert coupon.
So at about 9, we just left the classroom. Tyanne Val & I went strolling around looking for people to take photos with with our cameras. Then met Michelle and the rest in the canteen, they got their food alr. So after I finished, went to find Dawn Jen Jeannine Jaz Bernie who were pathetically sitting on the floor eating. Hahaha.
The hall was so fucking cool. It was so happening. Like it was soo packed with people dancing like idiots. Hahaha. But the songs they were playing were nice. And Melissa Mike was so funny, carrying everybody on her shoulders to STAND OUT from the crowd. So anyway, it ended off with imprompt dance competition, solo. One representative from each class. I think the sec1s were really good. We sent Lesley from our class, and she got like first for the level -.- Melissa mike was suppose to go up to represent her class, stupid wet blanket, they sent someone else in the end. Didn't stay to watch sec3s & 4s though. Left school with Dawn Jen jeannine jaz.
Went to Dawn & Jen's house and waited for them to get ready which took like forever. Left for town, met Jeannine Jaz & Val at heeren. Bernie came when we were at far east, then went back to heeren to slack. Belle and cheryl came. And we went to play at the arcade. Hahaha, arcade in cine. Played time crisis with Cheryl, and watched Jeannine and Belle play pool.
School was good, and so was town. I hope every youth day will be celebrated like that :D heh heh.

ZOE
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